4 DONE, 1 to Go!

Yep, that's what the doctors told us today, they will compromise at 5 treatments. They are glad that the tumor has shrunk very significantly, that is softer, and that is the good news! The not so good news is that surgery now must be performed and they are not letting me wait more than 6 weeks at the outside. As you can imagine anything longer than that and the chemo treatment would have been for not. So, my next visit for chemo will also be a day with the surgeon to go over my options again, which aren't options, there is as the doctors said today only one choice. Mastectomy OR double mastectomy, lumpectomy isn't a choice as 10 years ago I had radiation and therefore they can't do radiation again as the skin won't recover from it, so my druthers are to state firmly that I am not liking the no choice thing but I had always been down the road on removing both as they weigh too much and they're not even, and so on and so on.

The choices I do have is to start reconstruction at the time of surgery or not, only have the one removed and be really lopsided, or have them both removed, recover from that surgery and have reconstruction at a later time. My thinking is I have to have surgery, I have to pack up the house and move the household goods, I have to drive across the country with two dogs so I am thinking the latter as it is the most prudent of the choice and less time consuming and probably better for my mind, what do you think not that your opinion will be heeded just interested.

I seem to always be in a conundrum, really I am just now going to see how I do with this treatment, I did tell the doctors today that I thought they had been giving me a placebo and they both laughed and said no, not really and look the chemo is working the tumor has shrunk, it's just that your body is accepting the treatment very well, you are a fighter, oh how right they are! So I will keep thinking about some other way that they can get this now little tumor out with finesse and not a lot of my skin going with it! I let you know how that works out!

Thanks again for all of your comments, support, love, and prayers! Keep sending them they are what is working for me! Hugs, Deb