Here it is day 11 of the last chemotherapy session and I am just now strong enough to sit and write something that makes some sense of the last week and a half. I will be the first to say it I DID TOO MUCH LAST WEEKEND. I got kicked in the behind and then some. I cannot believe how much strength I don't have or the reserves to regenerate. I am much better today at least today I was able to finish a potato salad that I started yesterday! It's amazing what your body goes through with this stuff in your system, some ups some downs but for the most part I have been very very blessed to not have the side effects that a lot of people do but WHEN I go down I plummet.
I didn't even trust myself to drive myself to my Weds morning breakfast this week, my body would take a shower and then stand there waiting for more energy to kick in to dry myself off, then I waited to put my clothes on and then had to lay down to recuperate so that I could go downstairs to eat something. It was unbelievable to have nothing, not only no gumption to do anything but even the mere thought of doing something was missing. I know I have touted a pretty clear, uneventful case history these past three months but I am here to tell you that I did fall and am just today able to pick myself up and move forward. That being said, I am not ready to step outside and walk the neighborhood much less 2 miles. Maybe that will happen next week, that is walking the neighborhood and then moving on to 1 mile and then 2 miles.
I am meeting with another surgeon for a second opinion as I believe in any surgery you must seek other professional's advice and understanding of the disease and it's treatment plan. So I will keep you all posted on that visit which happens next Tues, the 18th. Again, thanks so much for your posts, comments, emails, and especially prayers, I truly cherish them all.
Hugs, Deb
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