These "new girls" are not healing they way they should...

After many days (almost 21) of fooling with bandages and stuff, my local plastic surgeon here made a decision and "opened" me up and cleaned out the quite large hematoma! Yes it was larger than a golf ball but not as big as a baseball, but this size surprised us both as it has been "seeping" for 3 weeks now.

Now I get to clean it out and pack it up twice a day, but, the GOOD news is that it is healing from the inside out, where have I heard that in these last few months? Ah, my local plastic surgeon put a call into my surgeon in San Diego at UCSD and she was surprised that she did not receive a call back? I wasn't. I haven't been able to get anyone in her office to respond to my calls or my emails since the surgery was done. Am I disillusioned with the surgeon at UCSD? No, not all, she is busy and I was cleared so on to the next case.

I just want to be healed and be able to move on with my life here in VA. I guess that will wait as all things do. The bad news is that I cannot shower unless I have a hand held unit that won't get that area wet. Gee that is a tough one as I like to have clean hair every three days! Oh well, guess I will have to find alternative cleansing procedures.

I know that most of you don't really care to read the actual details of procedures, but I was very brave and took the whole thing like a robot. It just needed to be done and I chatted most of the time she was working, and looked at the progress (sort of, the doctor was very curious as to why I was curious)and about what was being pulled out of me, really? I thought it was a rather large hematoma and the doctor said we did the right thing as it would have taken more weeks to have that drain out, so it is out, I am open and have a healing wound and we will see what comes in the next few days.

Thanks for being faithful readers and I know it can be gross but want to keep my venting up, it does help me tremendously!

Hugs, Deb

My question is: Will this healing process ever be over?

I know I am not the most patient person when it comes to me healing and I might push things along more often that not, but really? I am still dealing with the hematomas and I guess by all rights I should be as I am the one that cannot sit still and do nothing. My trip home with the bag as carry on probably kept the stupid thing "seeping" and then what with groceries and bringing the house back up to running speed I did too much. Anyone surprised by that? I am not but as one of my friends says, "we believe that if we don't do it, it doesn't get done!"

I saw a local plastic surgeon yesterday and I will see her again on Monday afternoon as she isn't convinced that I can take orders and act accordingly. Just kidding she just wants to make sure that the healing process is moving in the right direction and not an infectious one. Once the groceries were in and the house was ready for Easter and Easter was over I did relax more and rested, but could that be too little too late? We will see as the weekend goes on.

I am planning on a short road trip around here on Sunday and enjoying lunch with one of my CA friends as she is coming in overnight before she leaves for London for 10 days. So that is more rest than I have done in a long time. We'll see how it goes. Take care of yourselves and I will be back in touch soon.

Hugs, Deb

Four weeks out.

Today has been 4 weeks from my last surgery and although it has been four weeks, the hematoma that my surgeon warned me "was probably going to start to seep and seep for awhile" did so the day I flew back from San Diego and is still seeping. Now I ask you do you think that is okay? I guess I do as I haven't seen anyone yet for it and it is diminishing every day so I guess that is progress.

I am reluctant to say anything negative as it just gets me disenchanted and I want to feel good about all of this. I leave the blog most times in a better mood and am hoping that will happen today, I cannot do much and that is good according to my family but I feel like I want to run into the wind but later.